Survival In The Black

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman Bel typed into the computer next to her, the instrument a bit ...

Maybe if my heart stops beating It won't hurt this much And never will I have to answer Again to anyone Please don't get me wrong because... I'll never let this go But I can't find the words to tell you I don't want to be alone But now I feel like I don't know you One day you'll get sick of Saying that everything's all right And by then I'm sure I'll be Pretending just like I am tonight - Never Let This Go – Paramore Bel stood at the spot she told Xaviar she would be meeting him at, excitement bubbling in her like a teapot ready to explode. She missed her cousin so much. She couldn’t wait to see him again. She looked up as she heard the engine of a large ship and she smiled, covering her eyes from the sun while it slowly descended. It seemed like eons, but when the ship finally landed, Bel got on the scooter that Nina gave her and headed over to meet her adopted family. First one out of the hull was Bridgette. She had cut her hair and the short b...