Survival In The Black

A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose ‘Cause you love and care for the one you chose. - Rob Cella Bel busied herself with the flowers, turning them this way then that as she talked to herself about the list flashing in her head... Cake? Check. Champagne? Check. Flowers? She leaned back and then turned the red roses again before smiling in satisfaction. Check. She looked around Fook’s and sighed a huge sigh of relief. She used her money mostly on others. The tribe, Blackburne, Hale’s Moon, her new adopted family. And this time she was using it on Seana and Sabrina. Was it really almost a month since she witnessed them marry on Ariel? It seemed like yesterday standing there in the blue dress and watching as the two of the most important people in her lives declared their...

You thought you could hold me down. Making me think I was in the wrong. You thought you would come out on top. Singing that same ol’ not me song. Everything you did and everything you do, Could never compare to what is now. Being your doormat and letting you win, Is one thing I will never allow. You think we are good, but that is not true. The same old situation comes back into view. You hurt me, and killed what we had at the start. And now I am walking away to begin anew. Im tired of playing the ying to your yang. Im tired of following in a shadow too dark. Im walking away before it’s too late. Im ready to start making my own giant mark. - Hold Me Down – Player… Belize sat at Fook’s and carefully blew the steam off her tea. She had acquired the tea from a traveling companion. The pretty brunette had a wide range of specially blended teas from all over the ‘verse. When Bel had heard this, she had simply bought a stash and had Sobi make sure to put it aside just for her. The smell of ja...

I'm a nightmare, a disaster That's what they always said I'm a lost cause, not a hero But I'll make it on my own I've got to prove them wrong They'll never bring us down We'll never fall in line I'll make it on my own Me against the world - Me Against The World – Simple Plan Belize stared up at the ceiling in her new little apartment on Hale’s, the tshirt and shorts almost not enough for the cool nights of the rock. She knew it was morning the way the sun peeked out from behind the thick curtains. She finally wrestled herself out of bed and wiped herself down before she got dressed in the leather pants and black and blue checkered vest. After wrestling with her boots, she laid back on the couch and relaxed while she stared at the front door. In here, she was safe. No heart breaking decisions. No contact with despair or depression. And no contact with sorrow and sadness. She debated with herself for what seemed like hours, but her cortex beeped and alas, ...

(Past Thoughts) Diversion, she said. Td and I had to cause a diversion. I didn’t know what Seana had up her sleeve or what she thought Td and I could do, but I suppose there was only one only option. One only alternative. Lover’s quarrel. I couldn’t stop my heart from beating hard and fast in my chest. I swore Td could hear it as we stood across the street from where Immi was being held. I held my breath and looked up at Td as he nodded then I exhaled it and stormed off into the street. It was supposed to be fake. Every feeling. But it all came out. Every feeling. I told him everything. Fiercely. Every feeling and every hurt he caused by leaving me. Then going to Immi. I loved them both. But this broke my heart. I felt I could never feel it beat again. But here I was, in the middle of a street, screaming at him. Telling him how I nearly died. And he… just stood there. And then he tried to calm me as I stood there blubbering and screaming in the street. Every fiber in my body was razor ...