Survival In The Black

A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die. You hope you've found that special rose ‘Cause you love and care for the one you chose. - Rob Cella Bel busied herself with the flowers, turning them this way then that as she talked to herself about the list flashing in her head... Cake? Check. Champagne? Check. Flowers? She leaned back and then turned the red roses again before smiling in satisfaction. Check. She looked around Fook’s and sighed a huge sigh of relief. She used her money mostly on others. The tribe, Blackburne, Hale’s Moon, her new adopted family. And this time she was using it on Seana and Sabrina. Was it really almost a month since she witnessed them marry on Ariel? It seemed like yesterday standing there in the blue dress and watching as the two of the most important people in her lives declared their...

Everyday I have been going to treatments. The Golden Dawn at an orbit around Blackburne. Waiting for me and the day it happens. I know Xav asks   me everyday, pleading me to change my mind and to have the treatment now. Before it gets too late. I will wait. I have to wait. For Immi. For Td. I have to make sure things are settled and everyone is cared for before I go. Just in case. Just in case I don’t wake up. Everyday I think about how short my life may be. First months.. then weeks.. now… it could be as much as 3 days. 3 days to settle my life into a happy bow.  Am I asking too much? I suppose I am. Yesterday was… without a doubt, the worse of my life thus far. And that’s saying a lot. Considering how short a time I may have. It’s hard to see people throw away what time they have. The love they have, the words they want to share. Arguing over petty things. Yesterday, I went to Hale’s after having a day of treatment with Xav. I spent the morning getting prodded and scanned and...